soooo aljfnsdlfns tonight.

Was lying in bed thinking, and couldn't sleep.

I feel damn mleh again. I think I care abit too much about what people think about me. I don't really care thaaat much, but yknow, I don't like it.

I realize I might try too hard at times to portray a retarded, fun, don't-really-care about things kinda guy, but I dunno, I don't wanna always be thought as like that.

Maybe it's just cause it's 3AM and my brain is set to emo mode (or emode lol)

sigh, if anybody's reading this (all two or three of you) don't think of me as a one-dimensional, only thinking of teh lulz kinda person. Don't think of me as a whiny guy who whinges on his blog either, this is a one-time thing yo.

but like srsly, me, my brotha and faheem always joke that I can't take things seriously but I don't want people to think I seriously can't take things seriously. That would be retarded. Of course I think of things like normal people, I actually care about things, I just don't like to sulk over things but would rather just think of funny things yknow. geeeeeez

I don't wanna change myself really, I like making fun of things and trolling people and stuff, but I feel like it's gotten to the point where if I act NORMAL people would be surprised. I don't want that yknowwww. I don't wanna be too bland either. adsfnsdglksndg

I just don't like talking about corny shit on my blog or to people or anything, because it sounds corny and lame (ie: been thinking about her all day, my tears have been flowing all over the table (gay) and stuff like that)

mleh, maybe I'm just having one of those nights.

peace out, homeboys and homegirls. AND hom-o's and home-aphrodites (laaaame)

Ali 'the serious guy' Ridhwan

PS: geeez, this post is so whiny.